Thankful

As I type this I am sleep deprived and extremely grumpy.
Ev is not sleeping for any real stretch of time during the night, and it seems that I am awake listening to his every grunt and squirm. I am sure this is my fault because I am falling asleep while nursing, so he is feeding one side at a time in shorter intervals. Ugh...and he wont go back to sleep in the bassinet...only on my chest. None of this matters in the grand scheme of things because we all know he will sleep one day. The only up-side is that he is not screaming and crying during the night; he is mostly asleep or drowsy.
Anyway, I am hoping that thinking of all the blessings in my life will somehow lift my spirits and the scowl on my face.

I am thankful for my wonderful family who loves me and laughs at me and also gets annoyed with me. I am thankful for my healthy, funny kids and all the happiness they bring Donnie and I, for my friends who listen to me and always seem to make me smile, for my husband who is such an honorable, responsible partner and father, for my own health (although mental health is in question) and the health of my family, for my house, for the small moments in life that make me so happy, for the clothes on my back and the food in my belly and for God for making all things possible.
 I'm even thankful for the heartache, aggravation and irritation because it reminds me that I am alive. Today, however, I am most thankful for the coffee in the coffee pot which keeps me moving, changing diapers,breaking up fights,washing clothes and dishes, and nursing the baby.

Well, I feel a little bit better...I think.